This week there is a problem spreading through our school similar to pink-eye. Today I woke up to the same eye pain that all these students have been experiencing. As it only begun a couple days back, we the infected, are only about 40-50 strong. I was hoping I could go through the day without anyone noticing. But of course, the first people I came to, could immediately point out the problem.
The uninfected keep their distance and everyone looks at me as though I'm carrying the plague. The currently infected look at me with shame and guilt as though they are to blame. Some actually believe that they will catch it merely from looking and guard their eyes as they pass.
I have come to find comfort in the touch of those students who are experiencing these same problems. While the touch and acknowlegement of those students who aren't, feels like a blessing from God. I imagine this is only a fraction of how the "Untouchables" must feel every day of their lives.
Though I have entitled this post "A day in the life," in all reality, I haven't even made it the whole day. I have only made it until afternoon and I am filled with shame and embarrassment. I also have the sympathy and support here of all who love me, so my experience is nothing in comparison. And I know that this is nothing more than an eye infection and soon will heal. But, the behavior and suggestion of others has a huge affect on our feelings. I do believe that everyone should know, even if only for a brief time, what it feels like to be an outcast.
I don't blame anyone for this problem and I am not worried about my health. It will pass in a week and nothing will have changed. I just found the experience to be enlightening and I wanted to share it with anyone who's still reading.
BTW, keep us all in your prayers because there are many of us experiencing pain and the number is growing daily!
what a great comparison! Thanks for sharing this part of your life!
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